Anyone else had a similar experience? Allow me to explain...
So I went out to Bretwood GC in Keene, NH this morning for a 36 hole day with some friends from work. We had to start our day on the South Course because the North Course had a tournament going on later in the morning and was closed until it's completion.
The course starts with back to back Par 5's to open up. I birdied them both and was thrilled to be -2 through 2 holes. I par'd the remaining 7 holes on the front 9. Hole 10 is the next par 5, and again I birdie to bring my round to -3. After a par and my first bogey of the round, I'm at -2 standing on the 13th green looking at a 5 foot eagle putt. I yank the putt, and watch as it lips out, tap in the birdie and proceed to par the 14th.
This is where it all went sideways... It was on the 15th when it occurred to me that I could potentially complete my first ever sub-par 18 holes, and break 70 for the first time ever. As soon as those thoughts crept into my head, the wheels fell off the bus. I could feel my nerves go through the roof, couldn't keep my hands steady while putting, and just mentally fell apart. I finished Bogey, Bogey, Double, Bogey to shoot a +2 (74). Normally I'd be thrilled to card that round, but it just tasted so bitter after the implosion that was the last 4 holes.
The afternoon round was a pedestrian 82 without much focus and a tired swing.
I feel like i'm going to remember that round for a long time, as the round that could have been. At least it'll provide a little extra motivation to get back out there and keep hacking away at it, knowing i'm capable. Need to take Bagger Vance's advice and learn to shut my brain off without falling asleep.
In any case, 36 holes with friends sure beat going to work!